I came to a point in my life that I had to make some changes. Like all the challenges I had before me I would meet them head on. I was sure and confident in my abilities to overcome any obstacle. After all, I was a high school dropout that got himself off the streets, worked my way into a great career, owned real estate and had a beautiful wife and two great kids. There was nothing that I could not overcome if I put my mind to it.
When God began to confront me about my sexual sin through his word. I was not really worried about it because I thought that I could stop any time I wanted to. I just believed that I had the power to stop. I remember as God kept confronting me about my sexual sins and porn use, I knew I had to get rid of this issue in my life. So, I did what I had always done to succeed, I applied more effort and concentration to tackle the problem head on. I read more scripture and prayed more fervently, I made plans and vows. The harder I tried the more I failed, the more I failed the more powerless I became.
Then one day I came across this verse, ‘But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”, Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.’ 2 Corinthians 12:9. Paul said in verse 7 that he had been given something that tormented him to keep him from being conceited. The point being made that what ever it was that was given to Paul, he was powerless to do anything about it. What I was battling was not the same thing or the same reason Paul was battling. Whatever his affliction, we were suffering the same outcome and we were both powerless to do anything about it.
Breakthrough began to happen for me when I came to the place of admitting that I was powerless to break the stronghold of sexual sin in my life. God was saying to me “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect YOUR weakness.” Like Paul I had discovered the secret to real power. That power was God’s grace made perfect in my weakness. Paul is saying if I admit that I have no power of my own to free myself of this affliction then God’s grace displayed through His power would give me what I needed walk in freedom. When we admit our weakness, it unleashes God’s grace and strength. We can live a life free from sexual sin only if we admit that we in and of ourselves are powerless to be free outside of the One who says that His grace is sufficient to give us power in our weakness.